gotta keep moving

well I'm all moved in at the parentals!

I do have to say that me and the parents do make a hardcore moving team lol... and so far, so good!

Just been really busy (and tired) with school. Getting kind of burnt out. I love my classes, but I'm ready to be DONE!! I can see the light at the end of the tunnel and I want to be there already...

I MAY have an internship school site ::does happy dance:: and at the school I was kind of eyeing. Just need to take care of a few things before I know for sure. So right now, I'm just hoping and praying for the best :)


Really excited for this weekend, cuz I'm going to Kentucky to visit my 2 favorite peoples :D


On a more negative note, work politics are starting to get to me and want to get the hell out of dodge. If SELU offers me enough loan money for the fall, I'm quitting my job. On the plus side of that, I'll have more time to devote to my internship. On the downer side, I'll have to watch my $$ (not that I haven't lived tight before :p).


guess time will tell

just a life update...

wow, it's been almost 2 weeks since my last update...

Life is still going strong, even when I do not think I have the strength to do it sometimes...

Summer school is back in full swing and thankfully only taking 2 classes (instead of 3 like last summer!). I am taking advanced techniques and intro to play therapy. Both are interesting classes, but got to keep on work for both or it is easy to fall behind. Ready for them to be over... and it'll be soon enough. Next week will be my halfway point! AHHHH

Still looking for a school to do an internship at, but decided to take fate in my hands a bit. A classmate gave me a great suggestion: to email local counselors myself. So I did... I emailed 11 local counselors! I have heard from 3 so far (2 are at the same school). I'm crossing my fingers on one of them, I really want it :)


I'm moving home this weekend. I'm actually pretty excited about it. Hope my parents feel the same way...

I went to the shooting range with my Daddy last week. I thoroughly enjoyed it, both the experience and spending time with him. I got to shoot a .25 Titan pistol and .22 Ruger target pistol... and I did pretty well considering this the first time I had shot a gun... ever (and plus my Dad was an awesome teacher). I can't wait to go back.







first target with the .22 Ruger @ 10ft







Super excited about my 4th of July trip up to Kentucky to see my sister and nephew... I so cannot wait! I get to go on a mini-vacay and even better is getting to spend time with them. Can't wait for next Thursday to get here :D

how much faith??

“He who has faith has... an inward reservoir of courage, hope, confidence, calmness, and assuring trust that all will come out well - even though to the world it may appear to come out most badly.” - B.C. Forbes

I try hard to cling to this faith. Recent events had disturbed some of my inner faith holdings… one of my coworker’s grandsons was murdered by another child. You really sit and think about life and the world when you hear that an 8 year-old was killed by a 16 year-old. It shakes you to the core of your very being, and just makes your heart ache. How can a world be so cruel?

I was thinking yesterday about my decision to go into mental health counseling, especially my decision to work with other children. I questioned how much I really wanted to go into this field, and whether or not I could do it after hearing about this. After much and still continuous reflection, I had come to a decision regarding my future. I am going to keep the path I am on. I will have the training and chance to help others, and if I can even only help one person with their pain or suffering… it will be worth it. As a counselor, we have to work not to take our work home with us. We try our hardest to help our clients, but ultimately it is up to our clients to take that initiative to change… not us. Perhaps maybe the hardest thing to realize is that we cannot help everyone and not everyone wants our help. Ultimately, some things are beyond our control as counselors… and people. It’s one of the many ambiguities you have to face as a counselor.

I look back on the quote on the quote at the beginning of this entry, and I hope and pray I can remember it when the bad, ugly side of the world rears its head like this. I pray not only for the victim’s (my coworker’s)  family, but also for the suspect’s family as well. May they both take comfort in God’s love as they deal with their grief, loss, and pain. Two families are torn apart by this senseless tragedy. We will probably never understand the “what’s” and “why’s” of this situation… and perhaps, that is what hurts the most…

I just continue to pray for the soul of young boy and for those suffering with his sudden loss that they may eventually find peace.

moving on up

"The only thing that stays the same is everything changes..." - Tracey Lawrence (Time Marches On)

so yeah, there are changes coming...

I'm moving home in a little less than 3 weeks to go live with my parents. After living on my own for 4 years, I'm going back. Plus side, it'll save me about $600/month (which is about 1/2 my monthly bills) and hang out with the family more. Other side, adapting to being under my parents' roof again. It won't be horrible, but it will be a big change for me (and them). I am thankful that I am still able to go back home if I needed. This way I can save more money (and hopefully take less loans out) this way.

It will definitely be a challenge. But we are all adults, so hopefully it will a good, positive thing :)

Summer school started today. I think classes will be pretty good. I'm taking advanced counseling techniques and intro to play therapy. My advanced techniques class only has 5 people (!) in it. The professor teaching is taking a slight pay-cut by teaching an under-capacity class (God bless him!). But I'm thinking it will actually be pretty fun since he is totally into getting our input to make the class as fulfilling and knowledgeable as possible (plus that he is a great teacher). Pretty excited about play therapy too. I love the teacher and totally excited about the subject matter. So I think that my seventh, but third to last (!) semester will be pretty darn fun!

Downer note: still waiting to hear more on internship sites for the fall after the rift between the school internship program and our program... God will work it out though I believe, just gotta wait and see :)