sooooo.... good news! My cousin was accepted to the neuro-rehab and should be admitted tomorrow :) I am so happy for that news because I have heard nothing but great stories about this place. I'm so glad God's will is for him to go there for his rehabilitation :)
Well I went to go see him one last time while he was still in town since I knew it would be a while before I can head down to rehab place he will be moved to. But I towards the end of my visit, my aunt (the one who has disowned us) showed up with her husband, kids, and my grandfather (her dad). She saw me and turned around talking about how she'll "be right back". It makes me sad that she is not prepared to act like an adult in this situation. But, I cannot control her actions or her feelings toward my family... I can only control my actions and my feelings. I know all the aspects of the situation are God's will, so I will never really understand the bigger picture here. But I do know that those I share that 'family' feel with, I am blessed to have in my life. The family that I do still talk to, I would do anything for (and I'm pretty sure the feeling is mutual).
The whole situation sucks (in my opinion), but it's not under my control. We've all done what we have done, and that is that. I have pretty much made my peace with what she has done (for the most part), and she can face what she has done when it comes her time with God (as we all got to).
Monday, Monday
today started off kind of blah, but it definitely ended on a good note :)
Went into work later than usual since my neck was bothering me, and the day was kind of slow. But I was able to finalize an overnight trip to Texas to see some family I hadn't seen in a while :) I also got to hang out with my bff who I had not seen in a while. Also, I am working on finishing up a care package to send to my deployed bro-in-law later this week :)
My cousin BJ was evaluated for the neuro-rehab center again, but this time his responses were much better. We should know tomorrow on whether or not he was accepted or not (but supposedly his chances looked good).
Busy week ahead:
tomorrow (Tuesday): pick some blackberries after work at a co-workers (yum!)
Wednesday: Dr. Reid/Criminal Minds season finale night @ Emma's
Thursday: hang out with Nik/Superior (?)
Friday: SatC 2 with some of my favorite ladies!
Saturday & Sunday: trip to TX :)
Monday: no work (declared a holiday for state employees)!
Went into work later than usual since my neck was bothering me, and the day was kind of slow. But I was able to finalize an overnight trip to Texas to see some family I hadn't seen in a while :) I also got to hang out with my bff who I had not seen in a while. Also, I am working on finishing up a care package to send to my deployed bro-in-law later this week :)
My cousin BJ was evaluated for the neuro-rehab center again, but this time his responses were much better. We should know tomorrow on whether or not he was accepted or not (but supposedly his chances looked good).
Busy week ahead:
tomorrow (Tuesday): pick some blackberries after work at a co-workers (yum!)
Wednesday: Dr. Reid/Criminal Minds season finale night @ Emma's
Thursday: hang out with Nik/Superior (?)
Friday: SatC 2 with some of my favorite ladies!
Saturday & Sunday: trip to TX :)
Monday: no work (declared a holiday for state employees)!
light and dark, life and death... both sides of prayer
While talking to a friend today, she had told me some sad news... a friend of her's who was sick in ICU had died. It made me sad for her and for the girl's family because I had just said a prayer for her the night before.
It made me think about prayers. We like to think that God answers our prayers by doing what we ask. When in actuality, we pray that the prayers we ask of him are his will, because that's what God does... his will. Sometimes his will are the same as our prayers, sometimes they are not. When that happens, we tend to be sad and not understand why our prayers were not answered. We are not seeing God's bigger picture or his plan. I have faith everything happens for a reason, and that everything will work out how it is supposed to. I do not try to understand God's will because I am not meant to.
Of course I am happy that God's will and my prayers for my cousin are generally the same. He is doing so wonderful. He is so awake and alert and moving around. Hopefully he will be talking and walking soon. And of course I am sad that God's will and my prayers for the girl who died were not the same. But I am trying to think of the fact that God took at her at that moment for a greater, yet unknown reason. I know I still struggle with my grief and confusion from losing several of my close family members because I still struggle to understand what I am not supposed to understand.
Even though his will and my prayers do not always mesh, it does not make me pray any less. In fact it makes me pray more. Prayer is like my own personal conversation with God, and it is never one-sided :)
It made me think about prayers. We like to think that God answers our prayers by doing what we ask. When in actuality, we pray that the prayers we ask of him are his will, because that's what God does... his will. Sometimes his will are the same as our prayers, sometimes they are not. When that happens, we tend to be sad and not understand why our prayers were not answered. We are not seeing God's bigger picture or his plan. I have faith everything happens for a reason, and that everything will work out how it is supposed to. I do not try to understand God's will because I am not meant to.
Of course I am happy that God's will and my prayers for my cousin are generally the same. He is doing so wonderful. He is so awake and alert and moving around. Hopefully he will be talking and walking soon. And of course I am sad that God's will and my prayers for the girl who died were not the same. But I am trying to think of the fact that God took at her at that moment for a greater, yet unknown reason. I know I still struggle with my grief and confusion from losing several of my close family members because I still struggle to understand what I am not supposed to understand.
Even though his will and my prayers do not always mesh, it does not make me pray any less. In fact it makes me pray more. Prayer is like my own personal conversation with God, and it is never one-sided :)
12.0/3.0 =
well, it equals 4.0 which is my GPA for the semester :) yep got A's in all 3 of my classes. I am proud to say that I definitely worked hard to earn those 3 little letters. So that means 6 semesters down, only 3 semesters (that's only 6 classes) to go!!! guess I should order my reward soon (see previous post)...
I went to work today and survived working a full day (8.3 hours to be exact). My pain medicine makes me a little sleepy, so it was a little hard to stay awake, but I did it. It was weird to not really talk all day (guess this means I talk too much!), but I survived.
I am feeling much better than I have been. I think this will be my last night at the parent's house sadly, but I am ready to get back to my own bed :)
well bout to get ready for bed since another full day tomorrow!
love and prayers to all :)
I went to work today and survived working a full day (8.3 hours to be exact). My pain medicine makes me a little sleepy, so it was a little hard to stay awake, but I did it. It was weird to not really talk all day (guess this means I talk too much!), but I survived.
I am feeling much better than I have been. I think this will be my last night at the parent's house sadly, but I am ready to get back to my own bed :)
well bout to get ready for bed since another full day tomorrow!
love and prayers to all :)
pain = no fun
so (knock on wood), I think I'm feeling more on the upside of my teeth surgery... I may actually go back to work tomorrow.
Last night was horrible. Migraine + post surgery pain and swelling = bad. I'm really thankful that my parents are taking such good care of me.
so now hopefully I can enjoy the following 3 weeks off of school till summer semester starts...
still waiting for all my final grades to be posted, and if they are what I think they are, I am totally treating myself to a new swimsuit!
totally can't wait to order it from ModCloth :)
Last night was horrible. Migraine + post surgery pain and swelling = bad. I'm really thankful that my parents are taking such good care of me.
so now hopefully I can enjoy the following 3 weeks off of school till summer semester starts...
still waiting for all my final grades to be posted, and if they are what I think they are, I am totally treating myself to a new swimsuit!
totally can't wait to order it from ModCloth :)
finally got rid of them
so this morning I got my 4 impacted wisdom teeth out... this is the first time I have lost an original body part lol
Surgery went really well I am happy to report. This afternoon was when I was in the most pain, but I am really really good now. Mouth is still sore (duh!) and can't open very wide. My Dad brought me to my appointment and took such great care of me afterwards... he made me some homemade chicken noodle soup and some chocolate pudding and just checked on me regularly to make sure if I needed anything at all. I have been blessed with such an amazing Dad (thanks God!). When my Mom got home from work, she was great too (thanks for her too God!) making sure I was comfortable and everything. I definitely can't wait to figure what to get my Dad for Father's day now next month to give him an amazing day like we did Mom.
* post-surgery pic... my sister dubbed me Mummy-Tut lol
on a great positive note, I am officially done with my spring semester... 6 semesters down!! only 3 more to go!
I will be reporting more on that school meeting I was worried about so much yesterday after I talk with my professor hopefully soon.
Surgery went really well I am happy to report. This afternoon was when I was in the most pain, but I am really really good now. Mouth is still sore (duh!) and can't open very wide. My Dad brought me to my appointment and took such great care of me afterwards... he made me some homemade chicken noodle soup and some chocolate pudding and just checked on me regularly to make sure if I needed anything at all. I have been blessed with such an amazing Dad (thanks God!). When my Mom got home from work, she was great too (thanks for her too God!) making sure I was comfortable and everything. I definitely can't wait to figure what to get my Dad for Father's day now next month to give him an amazing day like we did Mom.
* post-surgery pic... my sister dubbed me Mummy-Tut lolon a great positive note, I am officially done with my spring semester... 6 semesters down!! only 3 more to go!
I will be reporting more on that school meeting I was worried about so much yesterday after I talk with my professor hopefully soon.
worried worry
"Worrying is like a rocking chair, it gives you something to do, but it gets you nowhere." - Glenn Turner
it is definitely giving me something to do right now... worrying about quite a few things right now
1.) getting my wisdom teeth out tomorrow
- not really too worried about the procedure, but of course since they are cutting my teeth out I'm not too thrilled about it.
2.) meeting tomorrow at school concerning the internship program I'm supposed to be doing in the fall
- I'm worried about this because a) I can't go because of my oral surgery tomorrow and b) concerns possible change of plans for the future. The meeting was announced yesterday and involves not just the newbies who are starting the program (like me) but also the ones who will doing it for the 2nd and final semester of internship. This worries me... a lot. My main concern is that because of possible budget cuts that the internship will not be paid anymore (it is now @ $10/hr, not much but hey better than no pay at all). I can't really work with internship, so I would be living off loans alone if this is the case. I would really prefer it not come to that. So I have to wait to hear what news is to be said until one of my classmates calls me tomorrow after it...
a-yi-yi-yi
a smile and a laugh
"Everytime you smile at someone, it is an action of love, a gift to that person, a beautiful thing." - Mother Teresa
So my cousin was moved from ICU to a long term care facility till he can hopefully get moved to the neuro-rehab facility. He makes so many little steps every day. He still has a long way to go, but I know God will lead him out of the hospital one day after his recovery journey is over. But the nice thing about this place is the more open visiting hours (instead of 30min every 4hrs).
I went to visit after work with him and the family. I was so lucky to see the most amazing act... BJ smiled and laughed as his girlfriend and niece tickled his hand. It was such a truly blessed sight. My heart was filled with so much love and happiness. God is truly doing his will with BJ's recovery. I have complete faith that BJ will get to walk out of the hospital one day. I know it will be a long, arduous journey, but what a better companion to have than God by your side?
on another happy note... I finished my last paper (piece of work) for the spring semester, and all I have left is to attend class tomorrow night to get my 200pts (counts as my final)... then I'm done! well for 3 weeks anyways lol
new beginnings
"With the past, I have nothing to do; nor with the future. I live now." - Ralph Waldo Emerson
I was just thinking about this earlier today about something I had read while I was at adoration this past weekend.
Every day, every hour, every minute is the chance of a new start and beginning. God gives us the opportunity so many times in our life to try and try again. Most of us don't even think about this chance or don't even consider it thinking what we did was so bad or wrong. I believe God challenges us to take these moments and better ourselves from this previous one. It doesn't have to be anything major or mind-blowing, just little things. We can learn how to grow and be better people both inside ourselves and towards others.
It also ties into the thought of mindfulness, to live in the moment. We take every breath we are giving and just live it to the best of our ability. We do not live in the past, nor do we live in the future... we live in the now. If you focus on the past, you will be living your life in the past and forget to live in the present... same can be said about the future.
so close
such a double-edged title...
This semester of school is so close to end, I can taste the sweetness on my tongue. Only 1 more paper to write up and an open-notes finals... officially done next Wednesday evening (since I have attend 1 last substance abuse class which counts as my 200pt final... no go = no 200 points :p). Which also happens to be the night before I get my wisdom teeth out... oh joy lol.
This also refers to my cousin, he is making slow baby steps in recovery. God is answering our prayers one at a time. He is brain is in such a deep fog... I pray to God several times a day for him to help my cousin to find his way through the fog. I know he can do it. Our family is praying that he gets accepted to a nice neuro-rehab center soon where he can better recover. If you read this, please pray for him.
much love and off to bed!
This semester of school is so close to end, I can taste the sweetness on my tongue. Only 1 more paper to write up and an open-notes finals... officially done next Wednesday evening (since I have attend 1 last substance abuse class which counts as my 200pt final... no go = no 200 points :p). Which also happens to be the night before I get my wisdom teeth out... oh joy lol.
This also refers to my cousin, he is making slow baby steps in recovery. God is answering our prayers one at a time. He is brain is in such a deep fog... I pray to God several times a day for him to help my cousin to find his way through the fog. I know he can do it. Our family is praying that he gets accepted to a nice neuro-rehab center soon where he can better recover. If you read this, please pray for him.
much love and off to bed!
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